Junior Year

Is over. Which is absolutely insane. I have four classes left at GW and am about to start a summer internship I should be very excited about. I'm like a real person. Or, at least, about to be.

This year has been really good. Which is weird, because I think if you described some of the major events of the year to me back in August I would have said I wouldn't be very happy with it. But I found some amazing friends who I really click with and am totally comfortable with. College Dems as been a lifesaver for me. I honestly don't know where I would be without it these past two years. It has taught me so much, about planning, making connections, and managing people. It has given me, in one way or another, basically all of my good friends. It's quality, and honestly I'm very sad to see my major participation in it coming to an end. I'm a little worried that it's ending and friends are drifting and the summer won't be very fun and the fall will be a terrible purgatory between being a college student and being a real person. Okay, maybe more than a little worried.

I don't know how to be a real person though. How do you make friends when you aren't in classes with new people and basically being forced to meet people constantly? How do you find connections that make you really happy? I just don't really understand.

I'm quickly remembering just how crappy post-girlfriend-going-abroad depression is. Why.

My life, summed up

Also, 3.5 days until the two biggest events of the College Dems year... on the same day. Going to be a show...

Tonight I was walking E home while we were both exhausted (it was only around midnight though) and across the street from us a seemingly-homeless man was apparently pestering some college girl. I stopped to watch and make sure she walked away okay, as did the drunk guy walking behind me. A guy on the other side of the street made a point of going up and intercepting the man and answering his questions while the girl walked away, at which point all three of us resumed our normal daily lives.

DC is a bit infamous for no one caring about anyone else, and GW probably more so, but seeing a little thing like that happen (with every young guy in the vicinity behaving very well) gives me some hope for the world.

Jealous

When did I become such a jealous person? I feel like I used to be a lot more self-confident and want a lot less of what other people have. I guess this goes with my failure to be content outlined below, but it's still party darn annoying.

Don't really know how to fix it, either. Distance myself from what I'm jealous of? I feel like that will only make me feel worse and thus more jealous. Grab on to what I'm jealous of tighter so I miss out on less? Impractical.

I remember being content, for so long, with having no life and few friends. Sometimes I wish I could go back to being happy with that instead of having gotten to experience so much more and want to go back to that instead.
This was a lot of fun though. Just not quite the right kind of fun to make me ecstatic. Which sounds ridiculous when I think about it but is super true.

Uhhh

E said today that I'm totally going to be super fatherly and will definitely have kids.

Scary.

Days

Yesterday was one of the best days I've had in a very, very long time. Today is just weird. Oh well.